May 15, 2009 11:00 AM by Britteny Elrick
This Monday,the tables will be turned for Jillian Harris on the premiere of The Bachelorette! After being rejected by Jason Mesnickon their overnight date in New Zealand, Jillian will have her pick of 30 handsome bachelors in hopesof findingher future husband. Last Tuesday, Jillian talked all about the upcoming show, Jason and Molly, and her former bacheloretteson a conference call. Keep reading for the entire interview…
“I can’t tell you whether it would end in marriage. But all of the people that I have left are remarkable people and I have not met anybody like these guys. It’s so difficult to know how to choose the right person in the end. And as you know I have not chosen that person yet, so I’m still struggling with that decision.”
As far as the bachelors that were chosen for her, she says, “They’re all very different. And they all make me feel differently, but I can tell you that they are wonderful guys, and I think I’ve made some really, really great choices.” “I need somebody who embraces it and who finds humor in it. And who also has a little, yes, some humor and some of their own quirky characteristics for sure. I definitely don’t want perfection I’m not looking for perfection,” she continues.
“It’s really scary, but like I said before, the possibility of me finding somebody and this whole experience. Just all the guys that I’ve met and the places I’ve traveled and the feelings that I’ve had, make it worth it.” she says.
Then she jokes about the fact that she was not only Jason’s third choice, but ABC‘s third choice for bachelorette as well. Molly Malaney was originally chosen, but then Jason changed his mind and broke up with Melissa Rycroft instead. Then Melissa was being considered, but she opted to do Dancing With The Stars. “I was a third choice on last season. I know what that feels like. I’m comfortable with that,” she says. “Obviously there’s going to be other people that are considered for this role. So no, it doesn’t come as a surprise to me that they would have asked Melissa and Molly. They’re both very beautiful, talented, outgoing, personable girls,” she continues. “And just also me being placed third on The Bachelor sort of naturally places either one of them as the natural choice. So I mean no it doesn’t make me feel like I’m third. It makes me feel really happy that they declined.”
Jillian admits that she first decided to do the show out of curiosity. “But once you get that little ticket and somebody says, ‘Do you want to give this a try?’ I always thought well I’m still single, and last season was definitely hard. But I learned a lot about myself and what’s the harm in giving it a shot.” she says. “I’m here to hopefully find the person I’m going to spend the rest of my life with. And that is a very very serious thing for me.”
She also comments on the fact that she has an extra five guys this season. “I was overwhelmed when there was 25 guys and when the extra five came out,” she told reporters. “I was very overwhelmed and I didn’t know how to react. You’re spreading yourself thin if you’ve got one night to try to connect with 30 suitors. And remember all their names and where they’re from and what they do for a living. It’s very hard,” she continues. “I don’t even want say by the end of the night because it was pretty much morning by the time you’re done that evening.”
So how does she like being on the other end of the rose ceremonies? “I have all these different things going through my mind,” she explained. “Do I pick the guy who has everything I want on paper? Do I pick the guy who makes me laugh and would be my best friend? Do I pick the guy who makes my heart go pitter patter? Do I pick the guy that everybody else likes? Do I pick the guy I know America is going to love but not me?”
But is it possible that she might not even choose anyone in the end? “Yes that’s something I’ve been thinking about a lot,” she said. “There’s nobody saying that I have to get engaged.” She continues, “I think I was so afraid to show emotion [lastseason]and I was so afraid to be vulnerable, that I may have sold myself short, and in this season, I’m definitely not doing that.”
“I think I’m even realizing more who I am and what sort of qualities I have to give and what qualities I’m looking for. I get to make those calls. And I get to make those shots,” she explains. “I feel like I’ve been really open and really honest and sometimes too honest. And I’ve really encouraged the guys to do the same thing… So I think that’s what I love about doing it this time is that I’m writing the story. And I think it’s a lot of fun.”
So what about the Fantasy Suite dates? “I’m normally really a really open girl about all these kind of things. But I mean it’s one of those things, that anybody can assume that I had a steamy make-out session with Jason and I went in the hot tub. That him and I quote unquote ‘did it.’ And we can also assume that every Bachelor and Bachelorette in history has done it with those people,” she says. “Even if I had or hadn’t I don’t think that’s a topic that I would even want to talk about. I could say right now I did not sleep with him just to make myself look better. But I don’t want to do that because I don’t want for people to feel entitled for them to know that information.”
She goes on to talk about her feelings on Jason. “Jason actually was helping me quite a bit make up my mind to do this. He is somebody that I talked to and he really supported me and Melissa supported me. And all the other girls supported me,” she says. “When I realized okay I’m making the decision to find somebody new, I had to sort of cut off my relationship with Jason,” she said. “But it’s temporary, and I will definitely be friends with him after all this is over.”But would she attend their future wedding? “I can’t imagine me showing up to their wedding solo. I would go if I find what I’m looking for, I would go and I don’t know why that makes a difference but I’m just being honest, that’s how I feel,” she said. “I would have a hard time showing up solo but if I find someone I’ll go.”
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